You Could Be Budweiser With How You're Cheap, Tasteless, And At Every Bar In Town

(Lyric by rednblue07)

You left me in hell with hateful words
You ran off to be something in the world
With your booze and your boys and your favorite toys
Cuz you thought I'd never be good enough
Well are you proud of yourself now, calling my phone
Cuz it's just no fun lying in your bed alone?
Are you happy to know I'm always good to go play
When your favorite distractions are gone away?

Lady M, Lady M, are we gonna go again?
Are you down, pretty girl, do you need a friend?
Are you lost, all alone, did he leave you on your own?
Better learn how to live cuz I won't always be your home

What keeps me here for you when I know it's over?
So strung out on love and it's hard to stay sober
Waiting at your door, you're no pimp, I'm still a whore
You been selling me short and I been begging for more
But I won't stand by and let you own me this way
And I'm having my days when I really gotta say
You should turn the other way cuz I'm not open today
Play your tricks little chick but I'm done with your game

Time Doesn't Care

(Lyric by rednblue07)

If it makes you happy, who am I to stand in the way?
If this isn't how it was supposed to be, well who am I to say?
If this was my one chance to twist the strings and pull them towards me
If this was my one chance to laugh in the face of fate

Would I take your hand and unravel the weave of time, would I?
If it was easier to just let go and get on with my life, would I?
But when it's said and done time doesn't care about us little people
When it's said and done time doesn't care

I watch time fly by, feels like I'm forever standing still
I've been stuck on memories, I can't get free and never will
But if this was my one chance to spread my wings and fly away
If this was my one chance to escape this lonely fate

Someday They'll Lock You Up For Tax Evasion

(Lyric by rednblue07)

I've found the secret to your modus operandi
And I stand in awe of your flawless finesse
So many kills and such a clean pair of hands
I gotta tell you, honey, I am impressed
And you'll get away with this one too, I'll somehow deserve it
And you can walk away to smear fresh blood on the walls
And I can tell by the way you smile you're loving this game
And if I live through this I swear to God I'll wipe it right off your face

And when you keep your journal how do I rate in your exploits?
Was it good for you cuz baby if I could go back I'd still go through it
Earned my stripes and burned them on and here I stand, one more entry
In The Book Of Souls Lady M Has Ruined

It's so damn easy to acquit you when you smile
And your best defense is a hard act to follow
And I'm breaking my teeth on this bitter pill you gave me
Trying to make it easier to swallow
But do you think of anyone else, is regret an afterthought?
Is there any conscience left inside your mind?
And if so could you be charitable and throw a tear or two my way
So I can have a memento of my role in this massacre?

Killers and life-takers
Harlots and heartbreakers
From here it's hard to tell
You fit the bill so well
It's just a kiss, it's the pistol under your pillow
It's just a kiss, but you missed...

Just A Boy

(Lyric by rednblue07)

The grains in the hourglass fall (which one's me?)
The world around me is changing
Trapped inside glass walls (and I see)
I can't fight this rearranging
But if I could have made one wish come true
I'd fall through the sands of time with you
But such a wish is like changing the world
I guess it just wasn't meant to be

Cuz I'm just a boy and you're just a girl
Trying to get by in an insane world
And I needed you there but you went away
All alone I know I never was okay
Someday I'll be good but now I'm a mess
You gave every chance I failed every test
And you can move on but I'm just stuck here torn apart
This is how you break a heart

The stars in the night sky shine (which one fell)
That made things be like this
?I pretend I'm just fine (can you tell)
It can't fill this emptiness
But the grains keep falling and the world is new
And the flow carries me away from you
And I scream so loud the glass might break
But it still wasn't meant to be

Beautiful

(Lyric by rednblue07)

When she was born her parents said "She's so beautiful"
They gave her everything she could ever ask for cuz she was beautiful
But it didn't take long for Mom to lose touch but she was beautiful
And Daddy loved her just a little too much cuz she was beautiful

So this is what it is to live in emptiness
Inside a house full of everything that doesn't matter
So she sat on the shelf and learned to blame herself
She was aesthetic from the very day her parents had her
And you think you can help her find herself
Well she never had a self to find
Cuz her soul's been long since shot to hell
Irretrievable and left behind

She woke up in the very best school looking beautiful
But her body is paying the price of being cool and beautiful
The very best clothes hide the very worst vice God she's beautiful
So she shoots it up and says "Isn't it nice to be beautiful?"

So this is what it is to ride the razor's edge
Inside a world where your soul is just the price you pay
So she sits in her room and listens to her tunes
Her body waits while her mind's a thousand miles away
And you think you can help her find a way
Well the way is just a dead end street
Cuz she sold it all to yesterday
For the cost of feeding her disease

Just watch that beautiful girl cry
Only she sees the ugliness inside

She dumped Old Navy for Hot Topic and she's beautiful
She eats her meals then goes to make herself sick so she'll be beautiful
They used to love her but now they've come to fear her cuz she's beautiful
She's all alone except the girl in the mirror and she's beautiful

So this is what it is to fade to nothingness
When all the beauty in the world is a pile of shit
And no one ever cared, no one was even there
To offer any word of love when she needed it
And you think she's got such a sad life
You never think that the blame's on you
For the monsters she keeps locked inside
Well can't you see that they're breaking through

A smile and a trigger and a glass of sublime, it's so beautiful
And when her parents look at her for the last time they'll say she's beautiful

Don't

(Lyric by rednblue07)

I don't want to feel this
Can't you see this is complicated
Don't make me believe this
Because it's easier being jaded
Don't invite me in, because I like the cold
And I'm wasted on all of the lies I've been told
I don't want to feel this
Because you make it seem too real

And what if I can't, what if it's too much?
What if I'll never be healed enough?
I want to run and hide when you look in my eyes
Please don't try to fix me, just let me die

I don't want to hear it
You see in me what used to be
And I don't want you near it
I can't have that innocence in me
It's better to deny the greatest thing I've ever known
So don't tell me to stay, I just want to be alone
I don't want to feel this
Because you make it seem too real

You're dragging my faith kicking and screaming to the surface
You're hurting me, what did I do to deserve this?
I can't afford to believe that I could
Ever believe in love again

Night (A Poem)

by rednblue07

I hate the night because it tells me lies
Hope flees with the sun from the twilit skies
Gently spoken through whispering trees,
Now come the words that create the unease
When I'm lucky I have places to hide from those blues
In noise and camaraderie and tankards of booze
But tonight there is nowhere and its only me
Just me and damned night and this cold reverie
And unease blossoms well in the light of the moon
Coalescing from sadness to madness to doom
And the whispering trees and the breeze sing to me
These hymns of preyse on my insecurities
If I love her, night can tell me she doesn't
If I thought this was real night tells me it wasn't
I protest and dismiss and tell night that its wrong
But night just repeats the chorus of its song
"Love her to death, tell her you are her own
Shes long gone from you and youll just die alone."
The protest is pointless and I lay down and cry
Because i know the truth that shines through these lies
Nights come and go and the stars shine and glisten,
And the breeze stirs the trees, and I sit and listen
But the words and the fears aren't night or day
It's my own heart and head making me feel this way
If it's me or the night it's lies just the same
Night's just one more lie so I can pass the blame
So how true will they be if I stay on my own?
I'm crazy. I deserve to die alone
So in the end its just me and my failed mental health
Night isn't shit. What I hate is myself.