Sunday, August 17, 2008

Just A Drug

(Lyric by rednblue07)

Doesn't feel like loser dust
Doesn't kick like snakebite
Feels like it's all I need to live
But all it does is kill me inside

Needs us both to be
Used as directed
But you never bothered to tell me
And now the poison's already injected

I can still live without it
So if your love's just a drug
Don't you dare sell me more
Cuz I don't want it, I don't need it
I can still live without it
So if your love's just a drug
Find someone else who's desperate for a fix
You're just a drug

Long days and endless nights
I'm strung out on your memory
Feels like I'd do anything for more
But you just can't satisfy me

Now I'm stuck here
While you sell to someone else
Tell him it's a little piece of heaven
Before you send him to hell

I am sober from you
I am breaking away
I am sober from you
You'll never own me again

Friday, July 4, 2008

Independence Day

Lyric by rednblue07

I know your phone is off, it's funny how I think if I could
Only call one more time, maybe this time I'll get through
But I know where you are tonight
And I know he's telling you you'll be all right
Without my love, without my touch
And it's so easy for him
You have to wonder if he's true

CHORUS
Will he hold you in his arms under the summer sky
And kiss you while the fireworks illuminate your face
Will you be reminded of the deepest love that ever was
Or is this your independence day?

I'm driving these small town streets, it sucks that I can only fear
You let him see what's behind those beautiful blue eyes
But I have your words and I'm alive by their promise
But it's your actions that kill me anyway
Cuz without your love, without your touch
It's so hard to live
And I have to wonder as I slowly die:

CHORUS

Sunday, June 22, 2008

It's Easier To Lie About Your Guilt Than To Tell The Truth About Your Innocence

Lyric by rednblue07

Feels like I'm living in a dream
And no one wants it to come true
I stare at page after page
Of blank expectant paper
Just can't get the feelings through
And it's not what you think
It's just hard to get the story straight
But I swear the truth is in here
If you'd listen, just listen

I can't make myself be what you think I should be
Can't you understand I'm only trying to find the real me
And everything is shadowed by the web of lies I weave
But I need you to help me become something to believe

All the questions and all the answers
Tangle into knots of anger
It's hard to say and harder to feel
But I really need you to understand
I'm a little messed up right now
And I know I make you want to hate me
But I swear the truth is in here
If you'd listen, just listen

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Costume Shop

Martyr: How do you like it? Does it make you happy to crucify yourself
Artist: Paint me a picture with just one color and show me yourself
What do you want and how far will you go just to find out that it's all in vain
How many faces and how many changes to find out that you're still the same

All things and ever-evolving - I can see through your disguise
Conflict and never resolving - Your little costume shop of lies

Sellout: Soul propaganda, what will you say just to make us believe
Sold out tonight's performance choreographed in what you wish you could be
Plot twist ensuing costarring yours truly, your love is just so damn rehearsed
Locked in your dressing room, everyone's guessing who you'll be when you return

CHORUS

Time for the curtain call, watch you bow for us all - standing ovation again
Your act is persuading but the makeup is fading, as the charade finally ends

CHORUS

Daydream

(Lyric by rednblue07)

He might as well be somewhere else
Should have never came to work today
His body moves through the usual grind
But he's a hundred thousand miles away

The boss is shouting in his ear
Useless words cuz he don't hear

Cuz he can't make sense of who he's become
Everything he's tried to build has come undone
And he's given up on answers cuz they're so damn hard to find
He's just outside his own mind wasting time

He used to be in love with life
Now he hates it all even himself
And he can't stand waking each day
He feels the weight crushing him to death

And he dreams awake oof days gone by
They're gone and he can't figure out why

Chorus

And he goes home and stares
At his weapon of choice
He knows someday he'll find the strength
To make it all disappear

Chorus

Don't Die Love

Don't die love
Cuz I wanted to say I'm sorry
Don't die love
Cuz there's just too much weight piled on me
Don't die love
The end is near but you won't hear me
Don't die love
Without you life's just too scary

Don't die love
I am wrong
These monsters I created for us
Don't belong
I want to kill them before they destroy us
Talk to me
No more secrets, no more lies
Can't you see
I'm still yours while we're both still alive

Don't die love
These darkened clouds just hang above me
Don't die love
I want to know that you still love me
Don't die love
I'm waiting for you to forgive me
Don't die love
Cuz without you I can't keep living

Shatter

(Lyric by rednblue07)

In this shell of a house I await my fate
And the silence is hell manifest
Am I sentenced to die for the sins of these demons
Without so much as one last request?
You rattle off your grievances and I cannot defend myself
I give you my blood and still you want more
I have named these scarlet ribbons after each conviction given
Still I cannot satiate your lust for love and war

CHORUS
I will put the gun up to my head and your lips on mine
And soon we'll find out which one kills me faster
Not a breath until it all comes spilling out of your sick mind
And I know just what the hell it is you're after
And the clock is ticking
(Counting down to zero hour)
I'm counting down the empty barrels
(Now I'm the one who holds the power)
I'll take you with me
(For I swore my love to you)
And I'll see you again
(Because hell's got room for two)

VERSE 2
I can feel the madness as it weaves its web
And anxiety grows as the trap is set
And it's not enough for you to call the checkmate
You've just got to shatter each piece into dust
You can kill my dreams and bury them in your power
But at least give me the chance to mark the graves
Because I have named them all after your anger
I could try to make them whole but they just can't be saved

CHORUS

BRIDGE
Stay your wrath
How can you hate when you caused this to be?
I can't go back
Though I can't leave you I can sure leave me

CHORUS

Only In Circles

(Lyric by rednblue07)

I have walked so far and now the road disappears
What will I do now? What will I do now?
I've had one good laugh that cost a million tears
What will I do now? What will I do now?

I am left to wander in the void
And I wonder...

Now you're gone so who will help me tell this story?
I am alone now. I am alone now.
There's no happy ending that could be written for me
I am alone now. I am alone now.

I am left to wander in this void
And I wonder...

What will make the journey worth the footsteps?
And how can I find hope through all the regrets?
And is there something here that I should find
Or is it buried too deep in time?
But still I search if only in circles

No one knows this place I'm off the edge of the map
I stand alone now. I stand alone now.
And there's just no way to release myself from this trap
I stand alone now. I stand alone now.

Guess I'll just meander through this void
But I wonder...

If you cared so much why do you hide yourself away?
I turn from you now. I turn from you now.
I'm not ready to move on but I guess I'll just be on my way
I turn from you now. I turn from you now.

I will make my home here in the void
But I wonder...

What will make the journey worth the footsteps?
And how can I find hope through all the regrets?
And is there something I should find,
Or is it buried too deep in time?
But still I search if only in circles
How can I get back to all the good times?
And who will take the blame for wasting my life?
Could I unwind these strings of fate
Or is it just too goddamned late?
Still I search if only in circles

Need To Know

(Lyric by rednblue07)

I don't think I'm better than you
But there's some things a respectable man doesn't do
You had some problems, things were coming to a head
And you ran and hid in another woman's bed
And here you are now, trying to charm her again
Is it remorse or don't you know that it's at an end?
Are you ignoring me? I'm more than just a rebound
She's never coming back as long as I'm around

CHORUS
So
You don't need to know what she's doing tonight
You don't need to know a damned thing about her
You're the one who had to break her heart
You're the one who thought you could live without her
Now she's mine
And she's a happy girl this time
And you'd better know that
Because you damn well should have known better

I don't mind you being friends
But your bleeding heart mentality has to end
This pining's pointless, there's nothing you can do
Can't you see you're the only one feeling bad for you
And here you are now, begging for pity again
It doesn't matter 'cause you dug your own grave in the end
She's got a man she knows will be by her side
And faithfully love her and won't leave her behind

CHORUS

BRIDGE
If you think I'm slagging on you
Remember it's only slander if it's not true
You couldn't be faithful and now you've paid the price
Just learn from the past and get on with your life

CHORUS

I Saw

(Lyric by rednblue07)

I saw you look away
I saw your deceitful ways
I saw you turn your back on me
I saw into your eyes
I saw through all your lies
I saw your infidelity

I saw you quench your lust
You smiled at me and destroyed my trust
I saw you throw our love away
There's nothing to say

I saw your failed escape
I saw you seal your fate
I saw you betray your vow to me
I saw and cried my tears
I saw beyond these fears
I saw everything that I could be

I saw, disbelieved my eyes
Your faith is hollow and your love's a lie
I saw and I know it won't be long
I just can't hold on

Throwing the past away just to say I'm stronger
Throwing the past away, can't take this any longer
Sure as hell not okay, and if death can cure this misery
Kill me
Throwing the past away, and it's like a poison
Throwing the past away, now my blood is boiling
Having to face the day makes my heart my worst enemy
Mutiny

I saw you look at me
Your body was soiled but your heart came clean
I saw but that doesn't make it right
It's over tonight

Throwing the past away just to say I'm stronger
Throwing the past away, can't take this any longer
Sure as hell not okay, and if death can cure this misery
Kill me
Throwing the past away cuz I know I'm stronger
Throwing the past away, won't take this any longer
Drinking to yesterday, and we've parted ways so fuck this shit
And here's to me

Watercolors

(Lyric by rednlbue07)

Night has fallen, the city sets the sky on fire
I bring your head onto my shoulder and hold you there
No one's here to stop us, free to give in to desire
All I want is you, this feeling is more than I can bear

Chorus
It just leads me to wonder, no I can't help but to wonder...
Feels like a big mistake, I don't know what I should do
Feels like I'm gonna break, all these dreams are coming true
So good it can't be right, what if it's not meant to be?
Please don't go away tonight, tell me you're my destiny

The rain is coming down, streaking on the window
The downtown lights blur like running watercolors
I hear you call my name, I can't hold back, it feels so good
And no one's watching now, our secret kept by the covers

Chorus

Hold me... tell me it's okay to trust in emotion
Love me... tell me it's okay to fall head over heels
Cuz it feels so good

Feels like a big mistake, all these dreams are coming true
Please don't go away, I just wanna be close to you
Feels like a big mistake, I don't know what I should do
Please don't go away, feels too good to be true

In This Moment

(Lyric by rednblue07)

I want to dance under the sky on the moondrenched plains
I want to sing, lift up my voice to the summerland's gates
I want to bask in the aura of your love and your grace
I want to see, I want to be lost in the spell of your gaze

I am spirit, I am the lover of all that is good
I am magick, I am the miracle misunderstood
I am life, I am the wheel, the great mystery
I am love, I am the passion, the prison, the key

And here in this moment I rise up as you take my hand
And here in this moment I finally know who I am

Give me the earth, let it be firm under my feet
Give me the air, let it be sweet, let me breathe deep
Give me the fire, let it burn with the passion of love
Give me the water, let it fall clear from the heavens above

I give my love, nourish the spirit of my fellow man
I give my life, courage to kneel so that others may stand
I give my magick, solely for that which is upright and true
I give my spirit, body and mind seeking union with you

And here in this moment I rise up as you take my hand
And here in this moment I finally know who I am

Bad Drinking Game

(Lyric by rednblue07)

I was down in a hole, couldn't get any worse
Then you came and took advantage of my pain
You made me believe I was happy and carefree
But you played me like a bad drinking game

I remember when I met you at O'Kelley's downtown
Such a pretty little charmer when you saw that I was down
And you picked me up and said you thought I needed a friend
Said you'd stick with me right to the end

CHORUS
You promised me escape then you left me to die
You're the world's biggest bitch and your mouth's full of lies
You're no good for anything you know damn well it's true
And I'm a fool for always running back to you

Now I sit all alone in this dark alleyway
You told me how to be and got me punched in the face
And before it was done six good men spilled their blood
0 for 1 in this bad drinking game

And where the hell are you? Still inside living it up
Yeah you tasted like a virgin but you're nothing but a slut
So I jump back on the wagon with a smile on my face
Because I'm done with your bad drinking game

CHORUS

Mirror

(Lyric by rednblue07)

Shattered glass
The broken pieces of a vision
Broken man
Torn to shreds beyond recognition
Try to put me back together
See the blood run down your hands
See how I hurt you
Cut you into pieces just like me
If it's broken it's just trash
If it burns let it turn to ash
If it brings me down
Let it make me drown
'Cause I'm not good enough
I'll never be good enough

Wasted breath
The prayers I offer still unheard
Is this death
Or is it only hell on earth?
I look into your eyes
Windows into heaven
But the view is obscured
By the teardrops raining down
I didn't mean to make this hurt
I didn't mean to let you down
I just wanted to show you what I'm worth
I guess you know the answer now

Let the mirror lie
Let my spirit lie
But don't be afraid
To sweep away the fragments
If it's broken it's just trash
If it burns let it turn to ash
If it brings me down
Let it make me drown
'Cause I'm not good enough
I'll never be good enough

Shattered glass
The broken pieces of a vision
Broken man

Baby Soap

(Lyric by rednblue07)

INTRO
The world is a sick place
You've got what they want to take
All their soothing words are lies
Just stay home where it's safe

CHORUS
His touch is like acid, his words are like baby soap
Don't give him one night, 'cause that's all that he needs
His kiss is a poison, his sin unforgiveable
Sleep in his bed and you'll see what I mean

Your precious little cherry don't mean shit to him
A scratch on his bedpost when he takes it away
Don't say yes or no, just get away from him
Or he'll take you no matter what you say

CHORUS

Honey don't make your bed here in this jungle
A million just like him await while you sleep
You're too young to find your way out here alone
They'll steal from you what you try so hard to keep

CHORUS

BRIDGE
Your virginity is just cherry candy
Your virginity... just stay home where it's safe

CHORUS
CHORUS

Fallen Hero

(Lyric by rednblue07)
With respect and remembrance for G.G.

In a world devoid of kindness
In a place without a soul
It's a rarity indeed
To find a true heart of gold
And you find it in his words
And you find it in his deeds
And it's there in his eyes
And you follow as he leads
And you watch as he works
He's a master of his art
And you try to take example
But it all falls apart
But he gives you the courage
To try, try again
And you keep pushing on
ANd you'll get it right in the end

But what will fill the void
When he's given all he can?

CHORUS
You're my fallen hero
I walked so long in your shadow
And studied your footprints
Until the rain would wash them away
Now what has become
Of the man who was invincible
You've faded into your own shadow now
A fallen hero

You've always held the magic
You're an artist and a muse
And an inspiration to everyone
Who wanted to wear your shoes
But now the canvas is faded
And the muse is silent now
And the hero inside
Has taken his final bow
And now what is left?
I will never be you
I will never get it right
And I just can't continue
You fell from on high
And you left us behind
And the things we still seek
Are impossible now to find

So who will fill the void?
Or must I walk on alone?

CHORUS

The Anthem of the Hopeless Romantics

(Lyric by rednblue07)

This is who we are, the hopeless romantics
The ones who spend our lives head over heels
We're looking for forever, but never seem to find it
This is who we are...

We throw ourselves into the lover's game
Flying high only to be rejected and left to shame
Humiliated constantly, but our hearts cannot be tamed
This is who we are...

CHORUS
We are the ones who still believe in love
Scarred and torn but never broken, just can't get enough
We will not admit defeat
Our hearts may bleed but they still beat
And you can see them on our sleeve
Because we still believe...

In a world so cold hearts can get tired
But we refuse to let that dampen our desire
You can take away the fuel but you cannot quench this fire
This is who we are...

You might think this life is one big mistake
But living without purpose is a chance we will not take
And this is what we do, it's what we feel, it's what we make
This is who we are...

CHORUS

BRIDGE
Sometimes left behind, but we will seek until we find
This is who we are...

CHORUS x2

Don't Bleed

(Lyric by rednblue07)

I'll never understand this thing you do
I really wish you'd let me stay here with you
I hate it when you tell me to leave you be
I don't think less of you I just wish you could see

Gashes on the outside won't heal the ones within
And I wish you would tell me about the hell you're living in
And maybe I could be your friend, just like I swore I'd be
And it hurts to see you do this, will you please listen to me

CHORUS:
Don't bleed
Take my hand you'll make it through
Talk to me
Let me know how bad this hurts you
I'm here for you
So will you trust in me
And I'll be by your side
As long as you feel the need
Just please don't bleed

Is this what it takes to know that you still feel?
How can those scarlet ribbons make this any less real?
Make me understand, show me what is haunting you
Cuz I can't take it, every cut you render cuts me too

You can scream at me and I will take the pain
You can take it out on me 'til I'm dead, still I will remain
No I will not leave, you're cutting deeper every day
It's not so far from dying, and I will not lose you this way

CHORUS

For Gods' sake open this door!
Don't leave yourself down on the floor
I forgive you for your sins and lies
But I can't let you quit, I swear I will not let you die

CHORUS

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I'm terribly irresponsible with all things on paper. So online just works better. Plus, my music- and poetry-appreciative friends can more easily access them for review. So anyway, here goes.