They'll Print Your Suicide Note On A Gift Card

(lyric by rednblue07)

Tell me about how you're grateful that I have saved you
Then dig that blade right in to show me how I've failed
Because my own pulse makes me numb to being alive
But you're just lucky you lived to tell the tale

So keep swallowing your pills
And I'll keep swallowing my pride
So we can both get fed up on being misunderstood
And when you write your next goodbye
Keep it simple, short, and sweet
If nothing else, it's analogous to your life

When you woke up did it feel like a dream?
Or did you fall back into the nightmare again?
Well I hope you sweat those summers out
In your brand new long sleeves
Or burn yourself in the glare of the judging sun

A Mismatch Made In Heaven

(lyric by rednblue07)

Hold on to me darling
And I won't hold out on you
We're a mismatch made in heaven
And still lost...

I'm chasing you through daydreams
And catching you on my pillowcase
And if you're there when I wake up
I know I've cheated fate, I've cheated fate
Now I'm throwing rocks in the tide pools
Waiting for my ship to come in
Someday I will treat you right
But for now I'll just have to love you
Don't say we'll make it
Or you'll jinx it for us both

CHORUS
Hold on to me darling
And I won't hold out on you
We're a mismatch made in heaven
And still lost in the wash
Take a leap of wishes
And I'll make your faith come true
We're a mismatch made in heaven
And still lost

If love is never saying you're sorry
You'll make a liar of me yet
And this empty bed is unforgiving
And sleep doesn't want me tonight
And I'm picking up spikes on the tracks
Waiting for your train to come in
A girl like you is hard to find
And harder still to hold
Don't say we'll make it
Or you'll jinx it for us both

CHORUS

If I Had A New LIfe

(lyric by rendlub07)

If I had a new life I'd be so much different
I'd roll with the punches and keep my head held high
If I could start over I'd do so much better
I'd make each day better than the ones gone by
I'd be a non-smoker and a nicer guy
I'd have a bigger heart and a stable mind
But it's all so much more than I can be right now

If I had a new life I would be more patient
I could tell what's trivial and what's worth waiting for
If I could turn back time I'd control my anger
I'd dish out less and learn to take much more
I'd work out daily and keep my house clean
I'd be non-divorced and have a college degree
But it's all so much more than I can be right now

CHORUS
So can you wait for another man to rise
From everything that makes you cry
Or if this really is who I am
Is it worth the tears?
Can you reach into my soul and find
The things that make me worth your time?
Cuz I would be the one you fell in love with
If I had a new life

If I had a new life I would be religious
I'd be stronger than the things that broke my faith
If I could push rewind I would let things go
I'd never dwell on things that I can't change
I'd count the blessings that I'd have
I'd smile at you even if I was sad
But it's all so much more than I can be right now

CHORUS

I'm locked in the prison of who I am
With all these traits I don't understand
Say what you want cuz I'm just not sure
I can look in that mirror and it's all a blur
And every damn step I try to take
Just puts me further out of place
And I'm so far gone I might never make it back

And if I had a new life I'd still be in love with you...

CHORUS

Summer Breeze

(lyric by rednblue07)

I don't need a clock, time flies on its own
Waiting for a summer breeze to take me
All around me moves and I stand alone
Waiting for a summer breeze to take me away

Take me away

So expecting like dandelion seeds in the sunrise
Waiting for a summer breeze to take me
Keeping faith only to wilt and wither in the daylight
Waiting for a summer breeze to take me away

Take me away

Downpour

(lyric by rednblue07)

She don't wanna let it on
That she's having fun
And maybe just a little scared
And I'm driving on and on
Into the storm
She keeps staring straight ahead

And she says she loves the rain
But she never
Danced in a downpour
She says it's not a game
But she's holding back a smile

Hold on
In the end
It's only rain and wind
In the end
The sun will shine

I'm chasing down her thoughts
But they're just raindrops
Quick to wash away
And I can't catch a single one
Cuz she's a storm
Of bottled up emotion

And she don't wanna let it on
That she's having fun
And maybe just a little scared
And she says she loves the rain
And today
She's gonna dance in a downpour

A Flint Hills Story

(lyric by rednblue07)

Prairie wind, will you tell me a story?
Paint me a picture with words no one knows
They don't teach this language so please speak slowly
And blow, prairie wind, gently blow

Prairie wind, have you been here a long time?
What was this place like, I want to know
Before lonesome highways and overhead powerlines
Blow, prairie wind, gently blow

CHORUS
I see cattle grazing on hilltops, so tell me
Where is the roaming buffalo?
I see fences stretching for miles, so tell me
Where did the wild things go?
It's still so beautiful here, what was it like long ago?
Tell me a Flint Hills story, gently blow

Praire wind, has time treated here well?
Is the water in the gully still pure as it flows?
Do the birds sing as sweetly, does the grass grow as tall?
Do you know? Prairie wind, gently blow

Prairie wind, do people stop and listen?
Or do they just look as they all come and go?
I want to hear everything that they're all missing
So blow, prairie wind, gently blow

CHORUS

Prairie wind, do the clouds taste the same?
Can Mother Earth purify industrial smoke?
Can she help us to clean up the mess that we've made
If so, prairie wind, gently blow

Prairie wind, can you tell me the future?
How long til this moment is a story of old?
Nothing is forever, so help me remember
And blow, prairie wind, gently blow

CHORUS

You Must Be Eighteen To Order

(Lyric by rednblue07)

Go on and hide me in the closet
You know I'll be here when company's gone
I'm fine with the way you need but don't want
I just wonder why you think the world would care

CHORUS
I can tell that I'm a tool
By the way I'm used then put away
And I'm not sick of being yours
I'm just tired of being your shame
Everyone needs a skeleton
And from in here I see you've got plenty
And I know it's just a matter of time
Until I'm just bleached white bone

I'm hanging out with zombies
While you're hanging out with memories
And we've got a front row seat to the heat
And we're cheering you on
Go baby go

CHORUS

Daughter Goose Grew Up A Promising Young Whore

(Lyric by rednblue07)

Mary, Mary, quite contrary
What makes your heart go?
Am I so convenient
Or just the only friend you know?

Do you like what you laid to waste?
You've had easy boys and pretty maids
And now they've all abandoned you
And I'm the one you wanna run to
Well don't you think I deserve some credit?
I'm reaching and screaming and you don't get it
So what the hell is it gonna take?
Will you ever get your life straight?

Mary, Mary, quite contrary
What makes your heart go?
Am I so convenient
Or just the only friend you know?
Mary, Mary, it's so scary
So hold on for dear life
Time won't wait for you forever
It's time to draw your lines

Do you like living day by day?
You judge good love by a good lay
And now you wonder why you're torn apart
How many fucks equal one heart?
Now you're a slave to the life you chose
Anyone can touch you but they can't get close
So why the hell would you want me now?
Will you ever figure yourself out?

You Could Be Budweiser With How You're Cheap, Tasteless, And At Every Bar In Town

(Lyric by rednblue07)

You left me in hell with hateful words
You ran off to be something in the world
With your booze and your boys and your favorite toys
Cuz you thought I'd never be good enough
Well are you proud of yourself now, calling my phone
Cuz it's just no fun lying in your bed alone?
Are you happy to know I'm always good to go play
When your favorite distractions are gone away?

Lady M, Lady M, are we gonna go again?
Are you down, pretty girl, do you need a friend?
Are you lost, all alone, did he leave you on your own?
Better learn how to live cuz I won't always be your home

What keeps me here for you when I know it's over?
So strung out on love and it's hard to stay sober
Waiting at your door, you're no pimp, I'm still a whore
You been selling me short and I been begging for more
But I won't stand by and let you own me this way
And I'm having my days when I really gotta say
You should turn the other way cuz I'm not open today
Play your tricks little chick but I'm done with your game

Time Doesn't Care

(Lyric by rednblue07)

If it makes you happy, who am I to stand in the way?
If this isn't how it was supposed to be, well who am I to say?
If this was my one chance to twist the strings and pull them towards me
If this was my one chance to laugh in the face of fate

Would I take your hand and unravel the weave of time, would I?
If it was easier to just let go and get on with my life, would I?
But when it's said and done time doesn't care about us little people
When it's said and done time doesn't care

I watch time fly by, feels like I'm forever standing still
I've been stuck on memories, I can't get free and never will
But if this was my one chance to spread my wings and fly away
If this was my one chance to escape this lonely fate

Someday They'll Lock You Up For Tax Evasion

(Lyric by rednblue07)

I've found the secret to your modus operandi
And I stand in awe of your flawless finesse
So many kills and such a clean pair of hands
I gotta tell you, honey, I am impressed
And you'll get away with this one too, I'll somehow deserve it
And you can walk away to smear fresh blood on the walls
And I can tell by the way you smile you're loving this game
And if I live through this I swear to God I'll wipe it right off your face

And when you keep your journal how do I rate in your exploits?
Was it good for you cuz baby if I could go back I'd still go through it
Earned my stripes and burned them on and here I stand, one more entry
In The Book Of Souls Lady M Has Ruined

It's so damn easy to acquit you when you smile
And your best defense is a hard act to follow
And I'm breaking my teeth on this bitter pill you gave me
Trying to make it easier to swallow
But do you think of anyone else, is regret an afterthought?
Is there any conscience left inside your mind?
And if so could you be charitable and throw a tear or two my way
So I can have a memento of my role in this massacre?

Killers and life-takers
Harlots and heartbreakers
From here it's hard to tell
You fit the bill so well
It's just a kiss, it's the pistol under your pillow
It's just a kiss, but you missed...

Just A Boy

(Lyric by rednblue07)

The grains in the hourglass fall (which one's me?)
The world around me is changing
Trapped inside glass walls (and I see)
I can't fight this rearranging
But if I could have made one wish come true
I'd fall through the sands of time with you
But such a wish is like changing the world
I guess it just wasn't meant to be

Cuz I'm just a boy and you're just a girl
Trying to get by in an insane world
And I needed you there but you went away
All alone I know I never was okay
Someday I'll be good but now I'm a mess
You gave every chance I failed every test
And you can move on but I'm just stuck here torn apart
This is how you break a heart

The stars in the night sky shine (which one fell)
That made things be like this
?I pretend I'm just fine (can you tell)
It can't fill this emptiness
But the grains keep falling and the world is new
And the flow carries me away from you
And I scream so loud the glass might break
But it still wasn't meant to be

Beautiful

(Lyric by rednblue07)

When she was born her parents said "She's so beautiful"
They gave her everything she could ever ask for cuz she was beautiful
But it didn't take long for Mom to lose touch but she was beautiful
And Daddy loved her just a little too much cuz she was beautiful

So this is what it is to live in emptiness
Inside a house full of everything that doesn't matter
So she sat on the shelf and learned to blame herself
She was aesthetic from the very day her parents had her
And you think you can help her find herself
Well she never had a self to find
Cuz her soul's been long since shot to hell
Irretrievable and left behind

She woke up in the very best school looking beautiful
But her body is paying the price of being cool and beautiful
The very best clothes hide the very worst vice God she's beautiful
So she shoots it up and says "Isn't it nice to be beautiful?"

So this is what it is to ride the razor's edge
Inside a world where your soul is just the price you pay
So she sits in her room and listens to her tunes
Her body waits while her mind's a thousand miles away
And you think you can help her find a way
Well the way is just a dead end street
Cuz she sold it all to yesterday
For the cost of feeding her disease

Just watch that beautiful girl cry
Only she sees the ugliness inside

She dumped Old Navy for Hot Topic and she's beautiful
She eats her meals then goes to make herself sick so she'll be beautiful
They used to love her but now they've come to fear her cuz she's beautiful
She's all alone except the girl in the mirror and she's beautiful

So this is what it is to fade to nothingness
When all the beauty in the world is a pile of shit
And no one ever cared, no one was even there
To offer any word of love when she needed it
And you think she's got such a sad life
You never think that the blame's on you
For the monsters she keeps locked inside
Well can't you see that they're breaking through

A smile and a trigger and a glass of sublime, it's so beautiful
And when her parents look at her for the last time they'll say she's beautiful

Don't

(Lyric by rednblue07)

I don't want to feel this
Can't you see this is complicated
Don't make me believe this
Because it's easier being jaded
Don't invite me in, because I like the cold
And I'm wasted on all of the lies I've been told
I don't want to feel this
Because you make it seem too real

And what if I can't, what if it's too much?
What if I'll never be healed enough?
I want to run and hide when you look in my eyes
Please don't try to fix me, just let me die

I don't want to hear it
You see in me what used to be
And I don't want you near it
I can't have that innocence in me
It's better to deny the greatest thing I've ever known
So don't tell me to stay, I just want to be alone
I don't want to feel this
Because you make it seem too real

You're dragging my faith kicking and screaming to the surface
You're hurting me, what did I do to deserve this?
I can't afford to believe that I could
Ever believe in love again

Night (A Poem)

by rednblue07

I hate the night because it tells me lies
Hope flees with the sun from the twilit skies
Gently spoken through whispering trees,
Now come the words that create the unease
When I'm lucky I have places to hide from those blues
In noise and camaraderie and tankards of booze
But tonight there is nowhere and its only me
Just me and damned night and this cold reverie
And unease blossoms well in the light of the moon
Coalescing from sadness to madness to doom
And the whispering trees and the breeze sing to me
These hymns of preyse on my insecurities
If I love her, night can tell me she doesn't
If I thought this was real night tells me it wasn't
I protest and dismiss and tell night that its wrong
But night just repeats the chorus of its song
"Love her to death, tell her you are her own
Shes long gone from you and youll just die alone."
The protest is pointless and I lay down and cry
Because i know the truth that shines through these lies
Nights come and go and the stars shine and glisten,
And the breeze stirs the trees, and I sit and listen
But the words and the fears aren't night or day
It's my own heart and head making me feel this way
If it's me or the night it's lies just the same
Night's just one more lie so I can pass the blame
So how true will they be if I stay on my own?
I'm crazy. I deserve to die alone
So in the end its just me and my failed mental health
Night isn't shit. What I hate is myself.