Night (A Poem)

by rednblue07

I hate the night because it tells me lies
Hope flees with the sun from the twilit skies
Gently spoken through whispering trees,
Now come the words that create the unease
When I'm lucky I have places to hide from those blues
In noise and camaraderie and tankards of booze
But tonight there is nowhere and its only me
Just me and damned night and this cold reverie
And unease blossoms well in the light of the moon
Coalescing from sadness to madness to doom
And the whispering trees and the breeze sing to me
These hymns of preyse on my insecurities
If I love her, night can tell me she doesn't
If I thought this was real night tells me it wasn't
I protest and dismiss and tell night that its wrong
But night just repeats the chorus of its song
"Love her to death, tell her you are her own
Shes long gone from you and youll just die alone."
The protest is pointless and I lay down and cry
Because i know the truth that shines through these lies
Nights come and go and the stars shine and glisten,
And the breeze stirs the trees, and I sit and listen
But the words and the fears aren't night or day
It's my own heart and head making me feel this way
If it's me or the night it's lies just the same
Night's just one more lie so I can pass the blame
So how true will they be if I stay on my own?
I'm crazy. I deserve to die alone
So in the end its just me and my failed mental health
Night isn't shit. What I hate is myself.